is been so long since i saw both of you,is been so long since i wrote in this blog, is been so long since you and i played in the grass enjoying the sun ,running,smiling,screaming, taking pictures,exploring,is been so long since i use to have all those things, and i been punished for something i didn't , and the way i been punished is not right, and i see that for the situation i am now, i should be providing bad energy,bad toughs and i should be unhappy, but i'm not!!! and i am just watching everything,in the middle of my madness and the natural things around me, like the wind,fire,earth,watter., i am in the middle and i see different,i don't hate people i hate actions and bad behavior, i should see more my monkeys, that is for sure, i should spend more time with them, i miss them so hard,this have to stop, they have to come back to me so i can keep being their rad dad, because i always worked hard to being a rad/dad , i wish i have them more in my days and in my nites, i think about my solin and my lucio, my lil monkeys,every day in the morning i think about both of you, in my dreams are both of you,in my goals, are both of you, in my heart are both of you,i love you solin santiago, i love you lucio luna, there is something in the middle of nowhere, waiting to be see it, waiting to be taken,is time for the external reflection of my spiritual feelings.
trying to be stable i saw my self going without direction, now i don't try to be stable, i accept that my life needs more dicipline,and then doing some exercises i feel more stable without trying to be,is different in a good way.
today is the day i got horchata for solin, november 27 of 2010, 2+7= 9 solin's b-day is januay 9, so in some how today is an important day and i feel conected,this is the year of the tiger and i am alsmot to reborn in this year, i understud that good thing start happening in my life since the first second of life in the year of the tiger, my year, this is my story of my life,and my two sons, Solin Santiago Mendez Duffy and Lucio Luna Mendez Duffy.
i know who i am, and where i comming from, will never for get it.
is time to change what is wrong, is time to see in between your madness and you reality, in the middle is located more understanding than any other place.
with love for solin and lucio...my sun and my moon.
familia primero:.c/s:.p/v:.
