Thursday, July 22, 2010


ME LLAMAN EL LOKO:. LA/MAT:. El loco es representacion de Dionisio o Baco, dios del Vino, según algunas barajas es el arcano 22, en otras el 0. Ese cero se debe a que uno de los significados de esta carta es que uno se puede meter en situaciones sin sentido que llevan a los mismo, un círculo, lo infinito. Esto le confiere una relacion entre el espacio tiempo que el resto de las cartas no tienen.
El loco suele ser una persona joven o inconsciente, que no suele meditar sus decisiones y que actua de manera cafre, impulsiva, visceral, no se deja halagar facilmente y va donde sopla el viento, puesto que nada le ata y es un espíritu libre. Ojo, que no toma a nadie en serio, pero tampoco es tomado en serio por los demás. Y eso le complica mucho las relaciones.
El loco atesora conocimientos que nadie tiene, que nadie sabe, y sobre todo, la tristeza del incomprendido. El loco va a vestido de bufón, el único que podía reirse del rey, el único que podia hacer chistes y bailar, el que más sabia de la corte, y el que nos acerca a la libertad más que nadie. El loco abraza la energía, la siente y la vive, pero se pierde en su busqueda y a veces se pierde en el vacio absoluto. SIEMNPRE ESTA CARGANDO UNA MOCHILA en el que se guardan los 4 elementos universales: fuego, tierra, aire y agua. Eso implica que está cerca del origen y final de todo, del big bang y del juicio El baston es un simbolo de la conexion entre el cielo y la tierra, siempre que veamos uno, lo valoraremos asi, es el eje del mundo y un símbolo de autoridad, aqui, de la autoridad del conocimiento del loco.
Como vemos, el loco tiene el culo fuera del pantalón (risas varias)... sí, amigos, a alguien se le ha olvidado subirse las enaguas, bien, esto nos habla de un despojo de los bienes materiales, el loco no valora lo material, solo lo que necesita para ser. Así mismo, es un simbolo de candor y pureza, es un ser inocente y todos le toman el pelo y se rien de él.
Nuestro loco va con un perro, que habla de las potencias instintivas de las personas, de la fidelidad a las creencias, a la lealtad y a las fuerzas cósmicas. En este caso, el Perro también simboliza el ego, como ven, el hombre va seguido del perro, y la persona de su ego, si fuera al revés, esto sería terrible, porque hablariamos de alguien orgulloso. Como vemos, el ego a veces se representa como un perro que llama la atención, incluso muerde al loco, pero es solo por llamar la atención. Este personaje no tiene vanidad y la interpretación la veremos libre de orgullo.The letter from the fool is the first in the tarot of Marseille, but the number is zero, which somehow allows you to be outside the actual sequence. The number zero seems almost dancing with the opposites (alpha-omega, man-gods). It is a roaming archetype derived by the soul as a nomad, is therefore a principle of instinctive movement, "crazy", as opposed to all sedentary nature of consciousness, any accommodation of the ego. Can be defined negatively, as the other side of the sovereign, secular counterpart, a court jester is able to blend in with the "sulfur vulgi" from the crowd.Sometimes it can be seen as the "spy" of the king. It is, ultimately, a figure that pushes life spontaneously, bypassing the protections conscious and conservative (so it is an archetype studded especially in the youth of the hero). The madman is close to the raw or original chaos and, as evidenced by their colorful dress, lives close to the festive and carnival. For its ethos adventurous and spontaneous, the loco has a double dimension: on the one hand invites the release of creative energy, but can also deviate from the path and become tramps North (St. Paul: "we are crazy (but) by the cause of Christ "). The left side represents the past crazy, loads, constraints, lives, people you already know, the less evolved than him, the part of the road already traveled. The head represents the present, today, now. Finally, the gesture to the right refers to the future, the road not yet traveled, people still do not know, those more evolved than what he or she still remains to be learned.You can also referisre integration of a disability or lack of objectivity. The Fool "The Fool" is the virtue of seeing the environment in a different way, open mind, easy to invent stories or stories (without reference to the lie), creative ability.

The Three Stooges


we are like water, we fit in any shape,we love each other, they are my son and my moon on my existence!!!!
NOSTALGIA:
depeche mode is been in my life since my mother died, and because of this music i understud that music makes me happy even if life and reality are choping me in pieces, i am not gonna leave music,i love you solin,i love you lucio!!
my sol and my moon of my real life!! the life and love i keep in our hearts:.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUhRusVu-Bs
IN BETWEEN REALITY AND BEEN REAL:
in my reality i don't see my kids like before,in my reality i use to to have a life with a wife ,house,car,even i got another father and after 15 years since my mother passed away, i got another mother miss. jo , my new parents always showed me kindness and love and respect for the way i live, free,artist,funny, in my reality they are not my parents anymore,in my reality they don't love me anymore, in my heart i keep my self real, i don't let reality lie to me and makes me be what i suppose to be in this reality a fool,looser .
in my heart they don't know i am still loving them and i pray for them, in my real heart i keep, in my memory every second they spend in my life for over 5 years,that is why we have to trust in our heart because in my real heart i have real love for them , and i don't have anything to forgive them, they haven't do anything wrong to me, i understand they are not looking the real heart, and they see just how unhappy was my wife next to me, and even if they think i am a bad person, because they just see her pain and suffering, they don't see how much we still love to each other,they don't understand her unhappiness, and they feel is my fault, its ok, in my heart we hurt each other for not been real and accept us just like we are, if that would happen we would still together,that is why even in my reality i don't have my new parents in my heart they will be there for ever,because i see them with love , that love that a father feel for their children's,i feel friendly love too, that love that makes you laugh, in my  heart i keep my memories they are there,fresh like yesterday. i am so sorry for not been able to make your daughter happy, she wasn't happy since the first day i came to America,she cry ed she doesn't like her job,(IN THE FIRST DAY AT L/49) she get hurt every time we made love,she cry ed scare for feeling weird things like having me but not close to her, (SHE DID NOT LET ME GET CLOSE FISICLY)what happened to us was, i let her make ME unhappy so she could see she is not the only one unhappy, that makes her not to feel lonely,and even with the amazing happy moments we had from our childrens my parents never saw how sad i was ,because i did not see my brothers and sister like i wish, they did not see what i need, they provide me what they tough what i needed, and as always i appreciated just the intention to make me happy in their way, and forgive them the fact they did not see what i need,now they are mad at me, and i miss them, in my heart i remember my birth day, i still miss my mothers food(gringo food)she always feed me and i do appreciated, my advice to my parents is:
DEAR MOM,AND DAD:
if your daughter married someone,if she is not happy after 5years you guys should listen her and then call me and ask me what is going on, because even if we don't get together never listen the two side is gonna give you a wide knowledge about how to keep your daughter happy and pain free,now you giving her support a 100000% you just are feeding her pain.and not listening me my version is gonna make you guys live a lie.
i love both of you, I'm not perfect but i do loved Erin.
i need to explain  that i did not did anything wrong opening the porch and you guys know i did not leave the doors like that, and for the record, the trees i broke suppose to be Erin and i, they were our tree, and when she told me i don't belong to my own house i took those trees that symbolise our marriage, i apologize for been  a dimensional symbol of the relationship between two consecutive orthogonal systems.  what i did was i took what belong to me!!!!
i did never touched her,aggressive, we fought like any other couple,she is very sensitive like a flower, i try ed to help her but the way i am bothers her, and you guys never saw that either. now you guys don't see the real thing because you don't know my side, so you been living a lie life with Erin where you think you know her , and honestly i know her more than anybody, that bothers her too.
I'm sorry for been such a pain in the ass for both of you,(who son doesnt do that?) I'm sorry you guys don't respect me, and i so sorry more than anything for your dis love.
i love you guys and i always gonna have amazing mind picture of us.
your ex son:.
juan carlitos :)

Friday, July 9, 2010

SOL Y LUNA

my sol and my luna are my best creation made with the perfect formula in between the mother of my childrens and i.
solin santiago is my first son and lucio luna is my second and last one. in this days i see life like a film, where i am the principal actor,and the director and the productor, the investor and this is my best show.......... THE REAL LOVE.
i call it like this because human kind like to divide everythingand in fact they divide love, in sections,.some love are mean and just hurt, some others let someone to hurt us ,just because i belived on someone who told us whe are not worthed.
so then looking to humand kind issues, (means that we suck about love).when is about real love is a kind of love we are not used to it, for then we dont apreciated when we have real love in life. the love i feel for my kids is real, the love i feel for my brothers and systers is real love, the kind of love that makes you grow just been next to someone who love us for real, 
LOVE FOR REAL MEANS. means that is some of us makes a mistake is fare enough because instead fight the mistakes we should fix the issue, is simple.when is about real love is when we have a problem give it the solution but in a fare judgement , when you dont see rason. when you see truth. then with out rason and with truth, we can see how good was before and why is not working properly . we will be able to see where is the fixable issue, cuz every issue is fixable, if you fix it with real love. without rason judgement.
with all those toughts in my mind now. i just can see my life with my kids. and i gonna try to fight with real love for them. life is hard sometimes but this moments is when you decide to keep been what you are ot become better person true pain, is like alquimist transform rocks into gold, change the bad feeling into something good.change bad toughts into good wishes,i cant tell is not easy but it is simple.so here i am , numb, i remember my other lifes, and my last life was full of love from my kids and week in other branches, i tryed to do psicomagia to cure andi got into troubles,so i realice life put me in the place i deserve, and for now i deserve this, to be by my self, with my kids,in my life i have to grow more if i wanna be where i dream i wanna be, but i think i am working hard to reach that goal. 
fight with love is not to fight for what hurt to us in this moment, fight with love means, to think in the good moments when life was awsome, the to see how good that person can be too,cuz it was good before is good now too.with a real judgement when can say why things changed and when, and decide  the most fare veredict.
is universal. that humand kind have to start love eachother and help eachother to become better!!!

namaste:. for solin and lucio.im here i think on you every second,every sun every moon,i have you .both of you in my heart,im my toughts in my words,every day every tattoo, every step in my life i carrie you guys with me!!!!
we are ok!!!  trust me!!!
for ever your father!!!
juan carlos mendez areu   alias
loko machetero dj tiezzo:.